its amazing how God saw me through this time of adversity. really, strength when i needed, rest when i needed it, alertness when i needed it, somehow, i think i grew through these exams. kinda depended on God alot. especially at 4 am, when its all quiet and physics got painfully boring, i would pray like mad. its weird cuz i just start talking, like im talking to myself, but im actually talking to God. its quite cool la, when you have no other distractions. (my books didnt really appeal to me) and when you're so so tired and you pray for strength, you actually CAN carry on.

well... i dun think i'll fare too well for this CTs. din feel very good about maths, econs and physics. wait. that's everything, but im trusting God for them.

if you're wondering about alertness, God revealed 4 mistakes in my chem mcq today and i was saved from making those mistakes =D

by Grace i am saved. clean.

econs is so bad. i have 4 more chapters and i wanna sleep. zzz.

people describe God's love as an ocean, i think its more than that. its more like the galaxy. imagine yourself shooting out into space, with no suit, no rockets yada yada. all you can do is squirm but you will keep moving on due to inertia and momentum (PHYISCS!!!!). its like God's love, you can't stop falling. i'll plunge straight into the heart of the endless universe, discover more things as i bypass the milky way and all the amazing stuff which i realise everyday. God gave me so much strength today. i had 2 papers and i havent slept. though sleepy, but im awake. i wanna fall till i see the Glory on God's face...

you can never have enough of His love.

okay its official. someone just hit the panic button in me. i dont have enough time. im so dead. but my God keeps me alive. so i pray that im not that dead to whatever extent in which i might die. but if i die, i hope my death is not a horrible death and that i can still look alive to some extent. but yea. im confused too.

hey all! guess what, i just came back from church camp and i really believe that God changed me alot. or at least he planted a seed of change. so much i must remember.

1) Temptations. repentance must be full. can you account to God about such actions, thoughts. its either judgement or blessings. im gonna choose the latter!

2) Vision. i think God really tweaked my mind in camp. He taught me to embrace His plan, this purpose that HE solely assigned me to carry out. i finally understood why God sent me to take sji, not some other school, not ac, not nj. its cause He wants me to be able to love people, to not only love people whom i feel obligated to love, but ALL people. how else would i be able to fly overseas and plant Churches in the future? HOW COOL IS THAT. =D i wanna get a CAREGROUP IN SJI BY END JANUARY!!!!!!!! im gonna grasp this Vision of SJI becoming what ACSI was last time. or maybe even bigger. not maybe, its gonna be bigger. more devoted. more God loving. and, i wanna be a worship leader!

3) Growth. I think the Lord really spoke to me about this as well. this was emphasized in the teaching about the End time Church, it's gonna be more powerful than all the rest. Jesus said that we would do better than Him, because the pouring of the Holy Spirit would be that of a FLOOD. Miracles, transformation, revelations. if you think 5000 people accepting Christ in the Book of Acts was awesome, its gonna be PEANUTS compared to the turn rate in the future. We are living in the END of the End times. God is already preparing the stage for the End times, lets be the ones in His army, the ones who were tested and have the word "Warrior of God" branded upon their shoulders. we are gonna be members of the End time church, part of the End Time Generation.

4) The AC group of 2003 covenented with each other on the 16th june, just past midnight. we're gonna bring this group to greater heights, cuz we promised each other to use what we've learnt, the very essence which God had blessed the group with. we're gonna use it to create NEW legacies, new stories. NJ will flourish, with sincere hearts seeking God. ACJ is gonna burst with people loving God. RJ is gonna explode, with convicted people who are fatally intellectual. CJ is gonna grow so big that they are ALMOST as big as NJ (=P that's a challenge for you Matt). SJI is gonna be won, i want the Hope Josephians to be the ones leading the school, the ones who will influence the Christian community in SJI. the ones with the aura of difference, of righteousness. its gonna be so powerful that people will be looking out for them, and they will FOLLOW, because God is with them, God is with US. We're gonna have teams of teams, and hopefully, we'll be serving together in the future again! =D

5) Stewardship. God gave us so many things, so really treasure them. be GOOD STEWARDS. people to whom God will say "My good and faithful servant" one such thing is that of our studies. i think God really really changed my attitude about studying. im not studying to pass. im studying because God gave me an agenda here. to do well and GLORIFY HIS NAME. quite a few people know that i got DODO for my last common tests. i dunno what will happen cuz i dun have much time left, but image if i get straight As after this, WONT GOD BE GLORIFIED? of course He will! its all His work afterall. well, im gonna study like MAD for Him. to bring back the glory for Him, to lift MY GOD to the HIGHEST.

alright, the main thing God taught me out of all these, is that of embracing His Vision, His purpose and His plans. only way to know that you're in sync is to be very very close to God. cuz the Holy Spirit isnt gonna scream in your face. Vision, live it for God. cuz revival will only begin when we are desperate for it. only when we want it like everything. EVERYTHING. revival will begin and along with Faith, asking God for the Revival. it will begin. and it starts with Repentance as well, total, complete repentance. its continual repentence as well! =D choose God.

I am not ashamed, of the Gospel of Your name.

seems like its been SUCH A LONG TIME since i posted... =) well, i've been really busy with alot of things. i want to give THANKS.

THANK YOU LORD FOR...

1) For Jeremiah, i think he's really a blessing, so young, so willing, so GOOD altogether. haha, its so fun shepherding him, i guess i really relearnt the whole meaning of being a shepherd again.

2) Daniel and Shu Yi for teaching me stuff in Biblical Sexuality class

3) Dan for advising me to go for Biblical sexuality class =)

4) My brain so that i can help answer questions, for using me to convict others.

5) My voice, so that i can glorify your name.

6) Ethan for buying me pizza when i was UTTERLY BROKE.

7) Leon and Samuel for going home with me.

8) Raphael for tolerating my debt for such a long long time and not charging me interest.

9) The june hols so that i can mug for my exams.

10) Bao Wei for leading the singers

11) All the singers cuz they prayed for me for my CHINESE EXAM =D (its in God's hands now)

12) my life.